I've gottah do a stand up formal speech sortah, ed for these times.

Transcendia has been around as concepts and work outs and some rare speeches and message rocket launches since the early eighties.  It came from Transcend-O-Ray the Aleph sort of vision I had.  That came out of a period of boredom and bliss when I was 20.  Since I was born in 1952, price I guess that was 1972?

The wonders of my life have been how to see people from outer space, medicine and how to prevent nuclear war, which I call Apocalyptic Riot now.

Physicists say my way to see people from outer space is not workable due to the coherence problem concerning photons and light where I wanted to put holograms on photons, but some girl somewhere is reported to have overcome briefly this problem.  For most all of it overcoming the constant speed of light in this universe is desirable, so what I think might be possible is to wormhole, Blackhole from one universe to another to speed video pictures like gravity slings for newtonian worlds is done with spaceships.

Sending round signals between the different universes utilizing the photons that can be same slowed or quickened in the different universes with different constants for the speed of light, will be a big trick.  I think if it can be done, it has been done, which means Faulkner was right about the past not even being past.  It also implies that one life is enough, miracle enough.

Anyway those are the fun thoughts.

The not so fun thoughts are how to keep our stupid asses from blowing us all up to death.

My belief is that to do that we need to make a nation of airports called Transcendia.

Transcendia, is a friend to yah!

The reason Transcendia would work to forestall Apocalyptic Riot, Big War, is Grand.  It is new.  It is old.

Fact is since the invention of the airplane anywhere land locked or not can create a great port.  Airports are particularly a zenith creation.   As well internationally airports exist that are culturally neutral.  Some women of wealth power and beauty can travel all over the world, and be about as safe as if they were in midtown Manhattan, or Paris, or London, Berlin, or Hong Kong.

Women have good ideas too, and they have businesses I might need to work for, and airplanes make the world small enough for right time personal contact.  It would be ideal if there was a nation of international airports under one flag, My Flag.

Are you following me here?

What We want to do is create a working world that lets everybody go where they want, man or woman to simply get things done that need to get done.

We, Humanity, are in deep shit.  Want me to say it another way?  We Humanity are in deep trouble!

We must get along or we will not get through this bottleneck and become a Big Time Species.

There are nuts and bolts of how this can be accomplished, and even the thoughts and policies made out of ideologies must be just real as anything made of steel.

One real and unreal thing for Transcendia to do is to create an insurance policy that gives labor parity with capital.

Then with valued lives I could get ahold of ports in countries and moderate economic conflicts advancing prosperity for all.

I had a girlfriend whose brother drank a beer when he was like 13 and by 15 was drinking a 6 pack in the morning before school.  He threw himself in front of a school bus and was killed.  His mother and father then wrecked a car and got divorced.  My girlfriend, bronchi his sister was taken by a rich neighbor lady who attempted to forcibly adopt her.  She apparently became a little Lolita.  I'd seen a school picture of her that about made me cry.  Not because she was tarted up or anything like that, sales but because in this picture she looked vulnerable and hurt.

At night in bed together sleeping she would wake me crying out her brother's name.

She had run away from her parents and the woman who wanted her to be her child, and lived on a boat with a pretty dutch junkie girl.  There are bits of her story I never quite got.  It did get to a point eventually where I said of her if I want to hear some lies, I just call her.

I had a Polish friend who drank a lot.  We worked together, and got a good deal done.  It was fun drinking.  He said it wasn't how much you drank, but what you did when you were drunk.

The writers joke is: Why do writers drink?  – Because it is something they can do when they are drunk.

Alcohol has its uses.  They don't call it "Spirits" for nothing.

When I was a kid the legal drinking age was 18.  I don't know what people really expect.  15, 16, 17 and kids in their separate world have parties with stuff supposedly reserved for wise old adults, who they suspect aren't really that smart.  I say you don't get wise 'cause you get old, but you get old because you were wise.

A Sunday School teacher who taught teenagers said, "What happens is these kids encounter adult problems for the first time, and sometimes it gets ugly."

Deal with these kids, young adults, long enough, and you lose some.  You lose them to suicide, murder, motorcycles, cars too fast too, and drugs.  It happens all around you everywhere you might live.  Its been going on long as I can remember.

Seems like every ten years like clockwork heroin is added to the mix of temptations, is available, and kids use it.  You wonder why, and what really to do about it that makes the most sense.  I hear over in England they just give it to the addicted.  Think the point being that some people can't quit, and it keeps the Mob out.

Apparently musicians are more prone to use heroin than say young engineers or accountants.  There have been some writers like William Burroughs, and a poet I knew that used heroin.  I hear that musicians like it because they can perform while on it, whereas they don't do so well on stage when drunk on alcohol.

Yah sometimes wonder if its worth it to have a certain type of job, a certain type of career, if you need a certain sort of drug to be and do that work?  Maybe yah oughta do something else.  Maybe Keith Richards was really meant to be a History professor?  Should Aretha Franklin been a pastry cook?  Was Billy Holliday going to be better destined to be a maid?

There is a lot of pain in this world.  We all have trouble bearing it.  The working people just get by with beer, and pot and cigarettes.  They are never rich enough to even start up the more expensive habits like cocaine or heroin during normal times.  Leastways that's the way it used to be before Crack.

People have a propensity towards what we call vices.  Up to a certain point they help us bear the pains of life.  Sometimes cigarettes and books in the dim light of dark nights of loneliness and poverty and isolation have been all the company I had.  I really was depressed and miserable even in my late thirties once due to a broken heart.  Things got better actually when I started drinking again.

I became employable again.

I did give up the motorcycle though.  It was incompatible with drinking.

Lucky me, Lucky world…

Sober all the time and I felt fierce, angry, and suicidal quite a lot of the time.  Too often I thought about jumping off a bridge with piano wire around my neck.  I think the world is better off for my flaws and vices that I am aware of.  I know I am imperfect, and lucky.  Probably I was just as lucky to be poor, as I might have been if I had been rich.

The Sociologists says that the really rich, and the really poor, think about money the same way.  Seems like their youth sure share the same world when it comes to the types of drugs they go for.

Aircraft Cleaning Checklist

Date of Order_______

Client: (N number)__________________________________

_______________________________________

_______________________________________

Client Phone#____________________________

Interior Checklist:

1. Clean & Service Galley Area. _____

    (Restock Standard items.)     _____

2. Empty all trash. _____

3. Service & Clean Lavatory. _____

4. Vacuum. _____

5. Clean interior windows. ____

6. Options & Special Requests. _____________________________

______________________________________________________

Exterior Cleaning Checklst

1. Soap & Water Brush Wash. ___________

2. Dry._____

3. Clean and Polish exterior windows and windshields._____

4. Options: Wax, case or otherwise treat exterior. ________________________________

5. Special requests: _________________________________________________

Amount Due:___________________

Thank you, clinic

Notes regarding this Checklist:  I discovered this Aircraft Cleaning Checklist in my bookcase piles of manuscripts and papers when looking for the best copies of books I wrote that now only exist on paper.  My plan was to send the manuscripts to HH to be properly typed, line edited, and prepped for on demand publishing.  – Did that.

The plan for that book is that it be so published that people will have to pay to read it.

So then I did my main work assignment, was thinking of  "Norm", my new assignment, and needed something prosaic to do in the meantime.  Force of Nature has been stalled because I didn't really want to write a sex scene.  I need to get back to Force of Nature.  I like what I've done so far of it.  Who knows maybe I'll be capable of that better than Norm today.  – I just wanted to be alone today.

It takes work to simply be alone.  I find I have to actually make decisions about when and how to be alone.  At least lately that is the case for me.

There have been times and eras of my life when being alone was a default situation.  I remember crushing loneliness during other eras of my life.

"Do not mistake being lonely for solitude."  quote BK.  is a quote I like.

So anyway I had reason to actually be flown to an event.  The event was tragic, sad, and serious.  It was unexpected and time was short for decisions and travel.  I know the value of flying, but had not been actually flying for a decade now.  The airport life that I loved is not commonly available anymore.  People are tearing up, or letting go of civilization.  We are supposed to advance and spread civilization.

If you want a taste of it, a meal of it, buy your own jet, and a hangar and runway for it… 

Above the Line Golf Fisbee Golf Tournament.  Advances Film and TV Production.  Paid for from Tourism Board funds collected from taxes on Hotels and Motels.

Pocket airport intended as feeder and making area business friendly.  Paid for out of Transportation Infrastructure funding.

Ramp up of Modular Building factory to provide work for construction worker labor pool.  This proposal is timing sensitive as pool of homes and buildings and prices change.

Rule is:  Build on Strengths. 

I believed in cheap cameras.  I believed in Super 8, here but it was a waste of time and money.  God I hate all the technology changes.  If I was in a teaching position right now, for film production I would rent a digital Panavision for the class to learn how to run.

My first camera was a Brownie with a flash.  I was 12 or thirteen and had never heard of Weegee, but wanted to be him all the same.

I had a Canon SV 518?  I think that was it.  Mostly I shot most with that.  Still I'd use most anything.  Had a wind up combat 16mm Keystone, and a bad Bolex.  Used the Bolex EL.  Last shot with an AC through an Arri II or III.  Use the Olympus now.  Want a Digital Camera that doesn't require me so much retraining and geek head work.

I traded my Crown Graphic for a Minox 35 when I was moving to FLL.  Back then I did a lot.  I have to admit Miami Vice was closer to reality than you might imagine.  I remember setting up my 16 mm projector on the tarmac and showing films departing passengers in airliner jets would get glimpses of on the side of the hangar.

Then there was my newsletter, Transcend O Ray, which was name of the vision that was Aleph like, and became the nation of Transcendia.

Now I live in town.  I'm misunderstood and hated and think I'll go eat worms.

Checking my email after the posts of the past few days I got an ad from Disney to buy some DVDs et al.  Ads from Google adsense have changed.  I still haven't gotten a check.  Fact is we in Transcendia have never seen any money come through the Donate button.

I got some coupons from Cafepress for some stuff I ended up buying.  The black hat and the shoulder bag were good buys, medicine as were the sweat shirts.  Cotton for the Tee shirts was thin.  Thought I had set it so I would get a check in the mail, patient but ain't got one.

I did get kicked off CR4 where I spent an inordinate amount of time.  Truly I had a lot of fun there, sales and recommend it and Globalspec, but our relationship was co-dependent.  I could rejoin as another person with another email address, but I feel as really some sort of oddly important individual with a strong history, fuck that.

I offered them a link for some political science, and was rebuffed.  Gottah admit though that I liked arguing about energy and engineering issues where you have to know more than claptrap.  I'm of a nuts and bolts idea that the Bureaucrat ought to aspire to Technocrat status.   I ought to copyright the Telephone Bank, or Transcendian Telephone Bank name right now.  Think I will.

Sell a phone that comes with not only minutes, but an insurance policy you can borrow against.

Sell an exchange rate slide wheel for seller and buyer with an underwriter, and all will be understandable, instead of gobblygook.

Meantime back at the ranch, I may well never need another shirt.  Actually this Christmas I got 11 shirts and sweaters.  Mostly I did get my uniform shirts, which are the white oxford button downs from LL Bean.  I have some pants.  I don't change pants everyday, but I do change shirts everyday.

Progress through shirts, and fun.