There is a Seamstress Shop at Carrmill Mall in Carrboro and this was in the window.

Barometer Skin

Lionel Douglas told me that I was like a barometer.
I had no idea that there had been a stabbing by some angry high school student at a high school. It is out there somewhere. He stabbed lots of young people badly. Some may die. These kids have been really hurt.
A few times I have fit the profile of someone who did insane things. For years, a decade about, I fit the profile of a Shed Man. The Unabomber, Kozoninski is some mangling of the spelling of the guys name.
At the end of the piece I wrote yesterday I said that if you are a bit dull, not strong, and not that good looking, you needed to join up with a group. Joining a rock and roll band works for lots of guys. It works for some girls who get real fat, but can sing well.
But what my god! What exactly prevented me over the years from living out the horrific impulses? For awhile I ascribed it to religious beliefs. I don’t think that is enough. Lots of times my religious beliefs are not very sting, and all the time they are my own.
Like I say, Try it. Try reading the reading for the day, and throwing the I Ching. Don’t stab innocents at school? Even guilty people: don’t stab them either. You won’t get anything out of it.
When you undertake some of these attacks, the idea is to win. A win Win is the best, but losing is losing and so accept losing if there is “nothing for it”.
You, whoever you are, need to accept that no matter how flawed you are, there is something you are good at, and you need to learn how to do that, and do that better and properly.
Get this, the Forrest Gump movie was about a big stupid guy. He was at least a heroic, big stupid guy. Einstein says it doesn’t matter, nothing matters, once you have the right goals.

(You can find a recording of Einstein saying so on Founder of Transcendia in the box of things on the mid low bottom right of the homepage of that FB site I made when the option was offered.)

Okay, I did a form and am waiting for the narration and have been doing study of the Tardigarde. It is an animal going back to the Cambrian age started 542 million years ago and also the Tardigarde is called a Water Bear, or Moss Piglet. It is when grown .5 millimeters big.
To make it bigger so it will be able to hold a talking head like a human has, so it will be good for space travel and do well as company for humans and cockroach heads and robots on Mars we will have to isolate big Tardigardes from small Tardigardes over an over so they are bred bigger and bigger.
Then we will isolate desirable DNA and inject that into the nucleus of the sperm and egg when they are united. I think that is how I can make a bigger and bigger and smarter Tardigarde.
Never before have I wanted to do this sort of work.

Rock on Bench

Audie Murphy movie poster collaged in The Station.

I have a Benchmade knife that is supposedly being picked up as a replacement for the venerable KBar Fighting knife my father or any WWII soldier would have been familiar with.
For a great long time, all a man had to survive with was a sharp rock. The obsidian glass hand axe, or flint of stone age peoples was what they had to make killing tools with. They could make bows and arrows. They could make spears.
They could just hit slash or stab other living creatures. A sling thrown rock that strikes a bear in the forehead will supposedly kill it.
Sometimes I hold my knife, and think dangerous thoughts.
I will this knife to my wife when I die. It is a better knife than most people will ever have. It fits my hand with a little forefinger handle disc cut out and my thumb has a a saw ridge set to prevent slip up. There is no cross tang. The K Bar design has the Bowie sword stop and a longer blade typically.
I wanted this knife from the first time I put it in my hands at the store. I was on and in my mind and I schemed till I got it.
Sometimes now I want to stab somebody with it. Sometimes I want to slash at them.
However I have a sword for slashing at people. When riding the horse at a gallop towards those who have shot their wad and are confused afraid of the big horse I want my horse to have its hoof up so the bayonet is mitigated by the iron shoe as I lean over and sword slash at the throat of the man, as an ideal.
Ah nah, not really. My sword is ceremonial. There is a bit too much stainless steel in its blade. It is too heavy. Or I am just too weak. All considerations conspire to make my pistol better. It is unfortunate I don’t have my carry permit. I don’t want to show the gun on my hip all the time. A small gun for an old man is good.
Just shooting people is all that is going to work for me really as I am simply not in good enough shape to be fist fighting, or knife fighting.
Be warned not to fight with old men. They are really likely to just shoot you.

When you get beaten up, take the counseling. If you don’t take the counseling you will enter the victimhood psychologically dangerous mental psychosis?
You will become mentally ill. This is the fact of the matter for the loser. Losers become angry and despondent and wreckage will be strewn about them.
Losers to bad weather, random bombings, suicides, war, and more, wreck their family lives and businesses.
If this happens to you, take a break, get counseling.
If you are a loser you will hate yourself likely. That is where the spiral starts, so you have to stop that with winning.
To win you can just go to the practice field and beat some other guys on the team repeatedly till your confidence is restored, or talk to someone who tells you how to think like a winner.
Think of things you do well and win at., at the very least.
You will be in trouble if you aren’t smart, or good looking, or strong. If you have none of those individual attributes, then you must definitely join up with a band of winners.

Fog near nighttime Carrboro East Main from Weaver Carrmill Mall lot looking West .

This used to be a great work. I an sad I let it be shown too long at Southern Rail.

I really liked this piece. It still exists. I thing there were at least 7 works done on steel. I started painting and when I started I wanted to use real steel and wood and finally sometimes canvas. Mostly I use panel to work on with brushes., and pencils. I like using a brush.
There are lots of things to tell the young artist. Whatever you are doing, do it big and in color is one.

Hey, Horace Williams still exists as an airport. The long time manager Paul Burke retired. I am sort of glad about that. I wish I’d gotten his job. I can’t do much more than I do now. It will be awhile.
One time a few years ago I asked Paul who was in charge of the airport at the University and he told me Carol Eastwood, I think. I need to pin this down as to whom is in charge. Holden Thorp put people “In Charge”.
Holden Thorp said there would be no airport in 2008, and that was the reason the Airport Authority was thrown out.
That was in late 2007 or early 2008, and a plan for Carolina North was finalized and the economy tanked and the University stopped getting as much money from tuitions and fees and the input from the State Legislature was diminished.

Tar Hell Temps was almost immediately closed. This was short sighted since it is accepted that a regular job for the US or modern world worker is not one as it was of the Kodak, IBM, or Xerox past.
A Temp Labor Service or Union Hall is where the young graduate or young person looking for work needs now and forever to look for work.
I often wonder where so many of the Chapel Hill excess administrators and managers went?
During the big roiling time of economic collapse it was said in the papers that in some departments there were 9 employees between the top, and the person actually expected to do what the “top” called out needed to be done.
Somehow this was explained.
I don’t hate the people involved one way or another. Many of them were likely nice looking friendly people.
I guess they all had cars and drove over the Raleigh and found work. Others went on vacation with good unemployment checks. Some people over in Cary were getting 525 a week in unemployment
I’m a Democrat, liberal in my mind badge, but the working class experiences give me pause about some things.
There are in fact some strange regulations put in place, laws that really did make it sensible to push back against the Federal government.
I am really sincerely sorry about that.
I’m a big believer in Women’s Rights. Some where women’s culture is more realistic. Ohio. There was the PBS movie I worked on that was run buy women producers and a woman director, and other women directors around. In the movie memoir section I’ll tell the movie story, some of the movie stories.

Department heads must be hiring research assistants. I’ve been real sick. Now I can walk.
In the Meritocracy of today, with transportation costs, and safe living requirements you need to be close to your job, and those who face to face put you in the right position.
A Freelancers Hall Is a Good Idea. Putting it out at the airport is a good idea. I’m going to see if I can do that.

Wall and Bush

This was my girlfriends girlfriend in NYC where the girlfriends seem particularly close.

Being at peace killing insects.
I’ve covered that in some poem. at least one.
I sold the picture done on panel at out of Sids to the same person who bought War Channel.
After that there was about drowning when moving. I remember what it felt like to cramp up and start to go under. Dad had to jump in and pull me out.
I remember lots of what it looked like.
Swimming pool! Air Conditioning!

We had already had lots of life. I’d been to kidergarden and had a rug from that. I’d been in the first grade and been slapped around then.
This is a list, some of my memoir list.
Things sped up when there was some settled fact to the four of us.
I never anticipated being disliked.
Your parents need to tell you more about themselves and their histories.
You need to be told you won’t be liked.

Memoirs, Make yours today!

Man with poisonous duck in his shower angry and murderous about the situation.

From Peoples Beauty Heads with Wigs

You understand that what is interior to the power struggle you live with in the US is a fantastic intellectual philosophical hatred of Hedonism by the most powerful people. Hedonists as a rule, can’t be all that powerful, because the pursuit of happiness is not the pursuit of power and money.
Therefore hedonists as a rule, are not all that rich and powerful.
Hence they don’t have laws in their favor and they get arrested for being demonstratively happy on drugs with funny haircuts pants and shirts and it is obvious to police who are employed to not only keep the peace, but enforce anti hedonism laws, however laws that exist obviously or otherwise can be construed to make being philosophically on the wrong side of the tracks clearly on the wrong side of the tracks as in jail.
Drug laws, are simply laws against being high.
Being high is a hedonistic thing.
The government takes your freedom if you are stoned, or have drugs that will make you or others stoned.

In the Kings world you are there to serve him and his family and the nobles. That means you need to be good and ready to go and stab and faithfully hack at the vital parts of another king’s peoples.
Stoned people do not make good soldiers.
Frankly this is another way of explaining the reason laws against happiness exist implicit or inferred.
In the US Constitution there is a mention of your right to Life Liberty and a “Pursuit of happiness.” That is just a technicality, as they would say. That was just put there. Anyway, it doesn’t say you can have happiness. It says you can pursuit happiness.
It is okay for you to be happy. Is it okay for you to be too often happy? How much happiness is appropriate? How ought the happiness be achieved?
The great religious saints often succeeded at not doing much of anything. They had the right attitude about it. They got along well with the Birds for instance living in a cave, for instance.
My Uncle the Episcopal Priest says God wants us to be happy and we have sinned if we went around being unhappy all the time.
A happy person in the midsts of adversity is an admirable morale builder. We see them in the war movies and hear of them in the myths.
The happiest pictures of Americans are of when WWII was over in Europe and the people danced and kissed each other in the streets.
The weather wads good. They had hacked and killed their way to happiness.
There was no good reason for all that happiness at Woodstock.
All that was about was LSD, and the birth control pill. That was a celebration of a short span of freedom that some un-entitled young people took.
Like artists they stole the time to just be.
There was art created in the permanent form of the Woodstock Movie, that eventually covered the costs.
Later that freedom was ruined by freedom lovers like the Hells Angels who murdered a guy at Monterey. There are ways to do these things, even hedonism needs to be accomplished by people who know what they are doing.
Still it is a serious problem for the harder workers of another miserable philosophy called Puritanism, or Calvinism, or Existentialism. We move from one miserable way of thinking to less miserable ways of thinking till we have at the best, Pragmatism and Hedonism holding hands.
When things go on for too long in miserablinessness too many of us start to look forward to war.
I personally want to just really really knock over statues to Confederate heroes. I know that this might be the last straw in the class war of misery triumphalism demonstrated daily with low chin shots of Ted Cruz.
But now I want to see him cry at the base of a destroyed statue of Bedford Forrest.
Thermite is the weapon of choice for destruction of these statues.
Get it and destroy the CSA for once and for all.
If it is just a pursuit of happiness, and all I’ll get, then fuck it.

Okay How about those rich people and their trips to Mars?
Some people don’t think it is fair for the Tesla Rich to get to sell their stuff and go to Mars, leaving us in the shithole created through their policies.
It isn’t fair, but this is their plan.
They expect us to kill each other over resources like water as a start, while they hide out in gated communities they will sell to standing warlords before they go to Mars.

On mars they will have a Hyperloop system from the Equator to the poles. Water conduits will transport the vital aquifer rivers to the Morlock mound towns. Things will be very fascistic like the plutocracy of Disney land till happy go lucky smiling Elon Musk dies, and then things will get like how miserable Disney land is.
That is unless something else is done.
That is also dependent on your state of mind.
Just what great fun will be possible on Mars?
The duty of the people has been recognized as keeping humankind going, so sexersize is going to be approved.
But then there will be limits to how much fun we can have doing that determined by interior design.
Woody Allen may have it too much right in Sleeper.

Leadership space head exuding calm and ethereal beauty.

Silent Sam

It is a mystery to me how any working class person can love the Confederacy. The Confederate States of America were dedicated to the use of working people as property no more with rights than we now would ascribe to a robot. Abraham Lincoln said, “If slavery isn’t wrong, what is?”
(Abraham Lincoln also said, “A man Cannot pull himself up by his own bootstraps. All that happens is that he ends up with his ass in the air.”) Really, some people just have to get some correction to their spouts and edicts. There are some phrases we hear way too often from youth on, that really don’t make sense.
But then okay there is an advantage to the despot attacked when his people are trapped where he controls the land. They will be shot by somebody and navigating who to try and get out of the way of is tricky. During the Revolutionary war of Independence a young man had many a cause to be confused. Ben Franklin was himself shocked that so many of his countrymen were so violently opposed to the Stamp Act. The Crown really had had to spend some money to protect the colonists from the French and Indians. If only that British judge hadn’t so insulted Ben Franklin we might still be more like the Canadians. Not that I want to be a Canadian. I gave up my chance for that.
Some of the most powerful writers in the world write for The New York Times. It is a powerful newspaper. The New York Times has been moving along with media technology advances and has video sections that often strike a fine tone. Of these news videos it is theres and the ones coming out of Shane Smith’s Vice and Journeyman Films that are good to put into your brain.
Truth is Beauty and there is a life of the mind we get that bugs don’t.
But you know there really are few Southerners on the staff of the New York Times. I have had difficulty getting through to the Northerners that the GOP is the Confederacy. In the days recently past and even on going still on Memorial Day school kids in the South attending schools where libraries might have had no more than 250 books for the Elementary school, people paraded around the statues to the Confederate dead. The Confederate States of America snuck in a holiday for those who died in the service for a nation dedicated to elitism and slavery.
Southern Land owners of Charleston SC were more rich from slaves to operate their farms than from the farms themselves, and murder and mayhem happened so they could continue to own black men and black women, and white women too.
Starting in 1890 in Richmond Virginia with Monument Row there was the statue propaganda competition joined with a grand plaza and statue of Grant in Washington and then Robert E Lee in Richmond there.
It went on and on encouraging fine and happy thoughts of the Confederacy and school holidays for young boys and girls dancing around the Soldier of the South, so the South might rise again.
And now it has. It is the GOP.
One too many days of seeing Ted Cruz and I wanted to knock over every statue to the cause all through the South. I still want to make a little movie like the NYTs shows, showing all these statues to Southern losers who wasted their lives in the cause of a failed philosophy, ethical crime.
Nixon pissed me off too making friends with China, the State Run Slave State that gives us Wal Mart through the colluders using a right referencing framework of thought. A nation friends with North Korea that is destroying cash through fine counterfeiting pisses me off.
Okay where was I?
I was explaining that the USA is now ruined by successful CSA operatives. You can’t really grasp how they get to do it till you are forced to look up at statues made of bronze and marble of Confederate Soldiers in nearly every Southern town.
It is another interesting fact that the number of people lynched during Jim Crow is just about the same number of CSA Daughters of the Confederacy statues, monuments of the CSA leaders and soldiers.

Silent Sam, symbol of Confederate States of America ownership.

During drive to see Mom in her new place Green City 2013 last of July or first of August.

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Scene: I TV Screen Talking Head

It is a Movie, but not a movie.

As I begin again in the ending of the beginning of the end there is the good and the bad of the movie which isn’t life but a movie like life.

Shots of Man at a desk. Pig at the desk. Mam in Pig suit and mask.

No, Okay, If it is me: I have to be in respectful suit and tie, or with my Sub Captain Suit on with my sword and guns.

From the deskof Russell Scott Day, Leader and Founder of Transcendia. Transcendia is the mixed up nation of pilots and poets that was to be funded by pot taxes and otherwise normal events. Now we do see legal Washington DC and Colorado.

Just at every opportunity we need to see a pig. Dancing pigs. Pigs and Big Fish. Sharks chasing a pig. This is life as we know it.

We also have a Race to Mars.
We must watch my head on the television spout out about the things we have, and don’t have and what to buy, when and not to buy when, as we get ready for meatless Friday and Pacific Coast Glowing Fish Sticks! They must be good for you, because it was swimming before we caught it!
Look here it is well wrapped and cheaper than any sort of meat, squirrel, deer, cow, or pig. Turkey, Ostrich, or big fat snake and old turtle and porpoise, or whale, anything short of other people. In fact now that we can, we must make a wooly mammoth, because it is big and wooly and we chased them all down through the world to the tip of it with spears and wiped it out and we can bring it back now and eat more or them.

Okay! Am I Ed Sullivan yet! No! Well just wait. Okay!

Pig Announcer-
So then let us go to Mr. Musk’s Mars Laboratory. Let us go there. Raymond Rottweiller is our best lab manager and it is his job to do a a few things.
Raymond will you tell us what you are working on?

Raymond will wear a Horse face mask and a name tag.

Raymond-I Raymond Rottweiler am an expert on what the environment of Mars is.
We will work from here.

Downtown Gas Leak Hanging out in Honeyoye Falls NY.

Dancing People is a painting I made with a few brushes and some paint.

I believe it was 1976 when Nike`, this girl left me, not the girl in the painting. 1976 from 2000 is 34 plus 10 is 44 so that was 46? years ago. I remember pounding on the door where she was with this guy who had been a friend of mine at work at the store where I sold cameras with him and his dad and Betty and Elsa some.
I sat around and cried lots that evening. I remember what the apartment building looked like. It seemed as if it was an ironic day to leave me and cause me to be all heartbroken and feel betrayed.
I have a great deal of sympathy for people when they are in the throes of broken heartedness. Aviator does a good job of showing a broken hearted Howard Hughes. It causes some people to commit suicide, or murder. Some people feel that there would be less war if women were more understandable. One of my hero writers James Jones had some hangups about it all indicating war comes from frustrations with women as in Some Came Running the broken hearted young man goes off to war and gets his throat cut with his own knife. In Go to the Widowmaker? there seems to be a lot of desire for a threesome with the new wife and the diver.
Overall the value of love story movies and stories is as warning to young people or even others that just because you think the other person is your soul mate, they don’t.
It is my practiced opinion that this thing where so many young people seem to have no value for great books contributes to their intellectual poverty and unfocused pain when they get their hearts broken.
I think my reading list is fantastic and has created a really sane person who in 1991 became a fully fixed gentleman after another severe heartbreak.
So happy to you Transcendian April Fools.

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I added a forehead like Kelsey Grammar has.

Photo of rig I did with DP risking his life and the camera you know.

This is Joe Mullen who managed gently the performers and people of The Comic Strip in FLL 1982 or so.

I was looking for the photograph of myself an Ron with the Air Force left over truck. I didn’t find that, but fell across these photos I published here. Remember these thins all are copyrighted by Russell Scott Day. I have been thinking of doing another sort of book than the one off books of photographs I’ve made over the past year and a half.